"Now I’m hearing silence so loud inside the bedroom

I face updates from people inside the tiny screens

graduating, traveling, soft-launching

oversharing, working, living

and though I sometimes do the same

it feels like we no longer share the same universe

ㅤㅤ 

Do you hear that?

It’s the sound of your leaking tears

dripping and forming echoes

you wish other people don’t catch

Because isn’t being twenty-somethings are supposed to be fun

and reckless and free-spirited and dumb and everything else but

being still. stagnant. and stuck.

ㅤㅤ 

And again I hear the questions who built a tent in my head

Does end of day means midnight or 5 PM?

Why did my friends scroll Instagram when I’m talking?

Was that a date? Or was that just a meet-up?

Why don’t my parents ask where I’m going?

I still don’t know the answers

but I can hear new questions hammering

nails to mark their place inside my mind

ㅤㅤ 

And that is my phone. Ringing. People are calling.

Actually updating me not from IG stories.

Asking my opinions on things. Talking about future plans.

Wondering about could-bes. Laughing. Crying as if they’re

in a crisis. As if we’re in a crisis.

ㅤㅤ 

Because we actually are in one. Half of our twenties were wasted

and half of it is still ahead of us. Half of our twenties are in the past

and half of it starts to reveal itself. Perhaps we still have the last half

to make up every nonsense we did. And maybe one day,

we’re no longer the not quite enough soul.

we will become whole."

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Penulis: Firnita

Penerbit: POP, 2024

Kategori: Puisi

ISBN: 9786231342027

SKU: BRD21783

Bahasa: English

Dimensi: 11 x 16 cm l Hardcover

Tebal: 120 hlm | Bookpaper

Harga: 105.000